The `Poker Face` singer struggles to cope with homesickness while out on the road but has now learned to accept her "darkness". She said: "The lowest point is loneliness, being on the road. I have a chronic sadness that recurs. "The lowest point was in Australia in May. I was overwhelmingly sad, and I didn?t know why because I had all these things to be happy about." Despite her black moods, the singer says her emotional state inspired her to write her best ever material. She added: "I went to the studio and played for hours and I wrote what is going to be the greatest record of my career, a beautiful song about my father. "I remember watching the mascara tears flood the ivories and I thought, `It`s OK to be said.` I`ve learned to love my darkness."