The music mogul - who has five children from three relationships - regrets his romantic failures and is constantly striving to make himself a better partner. He said: "Love runs my life. When I wake up in the morning, what I do, I do for a woman. "I wake up, I get dressed, I▓m trying to be fly for a woman. "I`ve been successful in a lot of things, but I haven`t been successful in the love area." Despite his romantic hopes, the rapper -whose real name is Sean Combs - thinks he is "not easy" to love and often deliberately ruins his relationships as he doesn`t know how to handle contentment. He added: "It`s not just me finding someone to love, that`s me loving someone back and being mature enough to sacrifice and not be selfish. "I`ve always f****d love up. I think I`ve had love there, but I don`t think I knew - and I still don`t know if I do - how to handle it. "Sometimes, when somebody is trying to give me love, I get uncomfortable. I`m not an easy person to love and that`s the thing. "I`ve never been able to achieve and conquer love."