RIHANNA says being in a violent relationship made her feel like an empty vessel. The RnB star made the admission in this month`s Marie Claire magazine. She looks great in a photoshoot for the mag, but opens up about the heartache she suffered while she was in a relationship with ex fella CHRIS BROWN. Last year, the singer was the victim of a brutal attack by her ex-boyfriend which left her bloody and bruised. And she says the relationship made her feel as though she wasn`t herself. She told the mag: "I was very lost. I have to say I felt really confused. I hate talking about it but it was really crazy because I felt so out of touch with myself and when that happens it`s scary because nothing you say or do feels like it`s you. "You just lose touch of everything that you love and everything that you would normally do; how you would dress or how you would say something. "It just feels like it`s not coming from you. It`s just this one empty vase. I felt like an empty vessel." She also defended her involvement in EMINEM`S controversial video for Love The Way You Lie. The singer said: "He [Eminem] confronted himself on it. He basically gives insight into what goes on in the mind of a couple in a domestically violent relationship." Later adding: "Every word in that song is true. It would take somebody who`s been on the inside to understand how magical those lyrics are. Everybody loves the song but the lyrics can never hit home until you`ve seen it, witnessed it, in your home or experienced it yourself."