The `Desperate Housewives` actress fought to hold back tears as she spoke about her split from the basketball player last November during an appearance on CNN show `Piers Morgan Tonight`. Eva - who separated from Tony amid allegations he cheated on her with Erin Barry, the now ex-wife of his former teammate Brent Barry - admitted she felt as though she had lost part of her identity when the relationship imploded. Piers asked her: "What was it like for you when it all exploded? When all of sudden the fairytale suddenly was hit by this hammer blow." A tearful Eva replied: "It was heartbreaking. It was┘ it`s the first time I`m talking about it. I`m sorry. "It was heartbreaking. I think it was disappointing because I had such an identity in being Mrs. Parker and being a wife. And so when that`s taken away from you, you go, who am I? It was hard." The 36-year-old beauty - who was born in Texas but has Mexican heritage - also confessed she refuses to hate Tony, despite the break-up. She explained: "Marriage in my family is really a sacred sacrament. It wasn`t something we did frivolously. But, you know, I guess the relationship ran its course, and so many people want me to hate him or want to just destroy him. And I don`t. I wish nothing but the best for him ┘ He`s not a bad person. He just wanted something else." Eva - who has been married once before to `General Hospital` star Tyler Christopher - would not go into detail about why she and Tony, 28, split. She said: "There was a reason why we got married. There was a reason why we fell in love. There was a reason why we were together seven years ┘ I would never speak publicly about what happened or why we got divorced, because I love him and we still talk. We still are in each other`s life." Surprisingly, when pushed by Piers if "there is any way back, as far as you`re concerned, if a man behaves that way towards you?" Eva - who was raised a Catholic - responded: "I don`t know. Only time would tell that. Because I do believe in forgiving. I do believe in forgiving and forgetting. I don`t know if it`s because it`s my faith and my religion. But I do."