Corey Feldman pointed a loaded gun at his head at 11

The `Goonies` actor - who first appeared on screen at the age of three - stole his grandfather`s weapon and used to "pray to God" every day that he could have the courage to kill himself because he couldn?t cope with his difficult family life.

When asked what is the most traumatic thing that has ever happened to him, Corey said: "Me pointing a gun at my head when I was 11 years old. When you are so abused - physically, emotionally, pretty much every way you can imagine - by everybody you care about in your life, there comes a point when you feel like, `What`s the point of going on?`

"So I would pray to God every day that he would kill me. I stole the gun from my grandfather`s bureau and hid it under the bed and asked every day for the strength to pull the trigger."

The 40-year-old star claims he had a "terrible childhood" and was forced to learn how to be a performer by his parents Bob Feldman and

Sheila from when he was three.

Corey - who has a six-year-old son Zen with his estranged wife, former Playboy model Susie Sprague - thinks the only people who can relate to his life are those who have been "born into slavery".

Corey added in a frank interview with Britain`s OK! magazine: "From the moment that I can remember, three years old, I was locked in a room, basically, and made to learn songs to sing in auditions.

"I had a terrible childhood. I can only compare it to someone born in Ethiopia, or Iraq, or who is born into slavery, or gang life. Well I haven`t lived through that, but the next step down."

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