Kristen Stewart is still struggling to "forgive herself"

The actress had an affair with her married `Snow White and the Huntsman` director, Rupert Sanders, and the 22-year-old star of the `Twilight` films has been spending her time out of the spotlight reflecting on her actions and turning to self-help and enlightenment books.

A source told website Radar Online: "Kristen is trying to find some inner peace within herself. And she is reading a lot. She has always been interested in philosophy and spirituality and she has been reading a lot of different books.

"Strangely enough, the one author that has really been resonating with her is Gandhi, who she decided to find out more about after watching `Eat, Pray Love`."

Kristen is expected to attend next month`s Toronto Film Festival. She will promote her latest film, `On The Road` but won`t be addressing her cheating scandal apparently.

The source continued: "The remorse she has isn`t completely gone, but Gandhi`s words have certainly helped her find peace with the whole situation. Kristen isn`t beating herself up over it, she`s accepted that everyone makes mistakes and she has to learn from it."

Both Kristen Stewart and Robert are skipping the final four conventions celebrating the ending of the `Twilight Saga`, according to the movie`s producers.

A statement from Creation Entertainment said: "Although Rob, Kristen and Taylor (Lautner) will not be with us this time out we will have a super line-up of other Twilight stars and the weekend will be filled with special events, movie prop and costume displays, contests, panels, auctions, parties, exclusive merchandise, music and much more, including some surprises!"

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